DOUBT LVL - We pretend to care

We all enjoy ourselves in awaiting of death
lost myself, face switcher
my back against the wall, and bilinear sky
above me

we pretend to care
we know what we'll become
back, when this is
only one our time

we have to give everything, all efforts! so why ?
we lost time
do i wasting my time ? I'm afraid to admit
I'm the same

three hours passes by
counting things, what did i ?
long ago with no blame
how to turn back? be the same?